my sunday morning is surprisingy going on with me in my labby at 6.40am.
hmm, anywa s.t hasnt washed the big frying pan in the sink. my pot is there too..but its funny how she is so lazy to wash them. i always do ehr washing for her. kast night, wheni came back, i saw the rediculous way she covered the food, i was utterly disgusted. what a terrible hygiene. but its ok, i decided then itself i wont be eating the noodles she cooked.
ok, now, i am so sleepy, shall i get back to bed?
hmm…….
well, went out with a friend today. had fun after a long time. we at at this chines eweaten restaurant where the food was terrible. the spaghetti was so terribly done like fried mee.
then i am sleepy now
type later
i baked potatoes today, did not peel them as i love to eat them with their skins. i ate them with some tuna . it tasted well delicious. i think i can live on them for the nexr few days..only that it doesnt sound too healthy to do so.
i left some for the s.t, but she seems to have eaten only one so far. its those mini potatoes, maybe she doesnt like them. anyway, something else about s.t is that she does not switch off the lights in the living room when not in use. so many times she has done that. twice so far, she has rudely hung up the phone on me without saying a bye. she smartly diverts the topic when i call her back.she thinks i do not know that she was attempting to save her phone bill.
spoke to R.C over phone just now..
i had filed away a paper wrongly. and did not realize it. when she saw it, she was not happy; ok i admit it was my mistake.
last night, i came back home, forgetting to make her payment. when she reminded me, i was shock at my own forgetful memory. anyway, i left home near 10.30pm to make the payment.
but of course she did not let me go without telling me off. i was very hurt. i talked back saying that i was disturbed, but she did not accept it and said that if she could handle her problems and not makes mistakes then why should i make mistakes……..sighs..i wont forget this for life.
she also told me not to argue and retaliate to her as i was at fault.
then i realized my mistake and aplogized to her. but i am sure she did not accept it as it is going to be rooted to her forever.
also she had bad motuhed me to another lady (C.R)efore and now she bad mouths about the same C.R to me.
she is also good at imagining nonsense.
if she sees that something is wrong, then why wait for me to correct it?
also if she can tell me to do something, then why wait for me to do an not throw the rubbish out herself?
if i did not throw it, it only means that i have been too busy and been rushing out of my house every morning and am not able to notice.
as for her, why keep on telling me to do it and not do it herself? sighs..
i admit i am not perfect myself, and i have committed many mistake in life, including not seeing through my family’s true colors much earlier in life.
my family has been terrible to me, tortured me and name it. even now, they are not leaving me in peace. i worry for my life every day. and everyday, when i leave my house in the morning, i get terrfiied of what danger awaits me.
my mother and her siblings have become more of a nightmare to me. when my case ends, hopefully it does, i will go away far from them. although, i know i have my Lord’s blessings, i still fear for my life and safety. i hope no one else gets mother and family like mine.
i miss my father, i still remember him and everything i did with him and him…i miss him so much!!
there are times when i selfishly desire to have my father back…but i know its not possible and i hope he is resting in peace in his grave. if he is peaceful in death now, i wouldnt want him back to suffer in this world. his time is up and he had to go,
when my time comes, i will go and so will my stone hearted family. then they will know who the real winner is. right now, i am fighting my father’s battle. and i am confident i will complete it successfully, because my Lord is with me.
God is with those who do right and think of HIM.
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